Everytime our neighbours (meaning pretty much the whole street – bless them! – how did we get so lucky?) fail to see me for a day they get all excited and think we’ve had the baby.  Given how easy I am to spot right now maybe that’s not much of a surprise.

My due date was basically this weekend (the 15th, adjusted from the 17th so make of that what you will), and for the last week or so there have been aches and cramps but nothing particularly painful, just noticeable. And nothing that is going anywhere.

And so we’re still waiting.

FB’s birthday has come and gone and no2 stayed inside (I’m pretty happy about that.) An event that my midwife really wanted to go to has come and gone and no2 stayed inside (She is pretty happy about that. 😉

But No2 – I’d like to meet you. I’d like your daddy to be a home with us all for a bit. I’d like not to lumber about the place.

I’d like to know that I actually can give birth without a ton of chemicals running the show. People keep telling me that it’s possible but I’m scared to get my hopes up (again.)

(All that said: I found a picture – which I will spare you – of me in hospital the day before FB was born. Damn but I look so tired! I’d rather be here that there.)

Today I’m 39 +3, and after a couple of days feeling low I’ve decided that I’m not going to read anything more about pregnancy and birth.

Ok that’s not true. I’m going to re-read Ina May Gaskin’s chapter on Sphincter Law and then I’m done.

I need to spend some time believing that I can do this, rather than worrying that this will be FB’s birth all over again. (There is no reason that it should be – but that hasn’t stopped me worrying.)

I need to spend some time doing other things – enjoying now, and preparing for the arrival of No2 (beyond ‘everything is washed, and put in obvious places.’)

I’ve finish sewing my pads, and more wipes (bar 5 because I couldn’t face re-threading my serger for the umpteenth time.)

FB turns 2 on wednesday, (unless there is a one day old in the house or I am in labour, in which case he will technically turn 2 on wednesday and we’ll celebrate it at the end of the week, or the weekend. Thank goodness at 2 he won’t remember that!) He’s already got a great book and sock monkey from his little buddies, and another great book and playmat from his aunt and uncle.

The doll is finished, and I’m looking forward to not having to hide it away any more – so there should be some more photos and a post or two about the clothing very soon (life permitting.) I had SO much fun making him, and I really would urge anyone who fancies having a good to screw their courage to the sticking place and go for it. It’s much easier than has been suggested.

Sorry I’m rambly today. I’m just in that sort of place.

More soon – I should show you some of the sewing I’ve been doing.

I have been working away at some knits for No.2. Some have stalled, and I need to sit down and finish them, some are still waiting in the wings and might have be dropped (depending on when he/she arrives.)

However these got finished, and I’m really happy with them:

Oh Baby Booties! (Ravelry) – I think I love this pattern! I’ve made another pair for FB’s Waldorf Doll (which I’ll post about soon), and I’m sure there will be more on my needles very soon. These are knit in test yarns from when Oxford Kitchen Yarns was really in it’s infancy.

Pilot Hat (ravelry) – This was made using 21st Century Yarns left overs from two previous projects. (Lovely stuff!) This was another really fun, quick knit, and again I can see myself knitting more of these if they prove useful.

This is a non-lace February Baby Sweater (ravelry) which I knit AGES ago out of handspun. This is not really showing it in it’s best light – it’s definately bright, but that’s not such a bad thing, and it will go with lots of the baby clothes. I love how there is unintentional two row striping which is just down to the length the rows happened to be.  I still haven’t decided if there should be buttons or not. I’m edging towards not, but we’ll see…